To Our Sweet Beautiful Tatum, As I write this letter, I still find it hard to believe that you’re not here with us. This past year feels like one long, drawn out nightmare that we are waiting to wake up from, but our reality is that this is our life now. This has been a year of adjustments and painful firsts as your daddy and I have had to face holidays and milestones that you’re not here to celebrate with us. You will always be our first baby whom we tried for, planned for, and prepared for. We spent nine months dreaming about what life would be like after your arrival. We never imagined leaving the hospital without you. We never imagined crying ourselves to sleep, instead of hearing your cries at night. Our home never felt lonely until last April. Now, there is always someone missing when we are home. A year has gone by, and although we cry less often, the pain is still unbearable at times. How is it possible for your little heart to stop beating without any tra